Brad is great at meeting other people’s expectations. But his own? Not so much. Take the gay thing. Okay, so yeah. It took a morning meeting with a frat brother’s hairy, naked ass for him to admit it, but he knows the truth about himself now. Let the gay life commence.
Unfortunately, it’s not that easy. He hasn’t quite determined how to come out to anyone, even Sebastian, the geeky-hot TA in his history class. Sebastian is everything Brad is not. Intellectual, suave, hairy. Out. And he doesn’t seem interested in Brad, even when Brad makes a fool of himself trying to catch his notice.
Score one for foolery: Sebastian does more than notice Brad; he takes him to bed. Brad’s been with plenty of girls, but with Sebastian, the sex is something else entirely—hot, mind-blowing, affirming, and a little domineering in a way that drives him wild. But when great sex turns into something more—dare he admit the “L” word?—Brad must face the crushing realization that Sebastian doesn’t feel the same. Unless, of course, he does. After all, even grad students can be idiots about matters of the heart.
ORIGINAL REVIEW: 4 stars — Was better than I was expecting…not saying I was expecting it to be bad, but it was like deeper than I expected. Now I sound like a valley girl. *sigh* Basically I wasn’t expecting much for story, but there was a romance flavour to it all. And I LOVED Brad. He was a really interesting male hero — so many contradictions to him. Loved his story, loved his passions, loved his approach to this new insight into his life. Sebastian was a great complement for Brad too — though I would maybe like to have learned a bit more about him. We got hints here and there, but not enough I guess. The frat boy friends amused me, especially Kyle…
ON REREAD: 4 stars — It’s been a while since I read this one, but it looks like I concur with my past self. Brad was the real winner of this story for me, we saw so much more development in his character. I loved learning about how his experiences as a teenager sort of forced him back into the closet, and it broke my heart b/c it left him so confused and unsatisfied with life. I love how he was never truly ashamed of being gay once he figured it out, it was more that he thought he wasn’t supposed to be. And once he figured it out, he accepted it pretty quickly, and was only really mitigating the fall out from there on out. He was kind of a sweetheart, and I loved that he was so different from what people expected, when you really got to see the real him. I felt sad that people had pigeon-holed him, and made him feel as though who he really was wasn’t ok somehow. It was so satisfying when he started going for what he wanted, and learning about love and pleasure for the first time. I loved that he owned up to his bad choices in the past, and felt bad for not realizing how he was hurting girls along the way. I LOVED that his family was so supportive and a non-issue. I LOVED that his best friend was freaking hilarious and shocked, but then all in ready to fight for him. I appreciated him having someone like that in his corner.
Sebastian had growth too, but I can’t say I fell as in love with him. We just didn’t get to see inside him enough, except near the end when he has his epiphany.
I love that the author challenged the expected roles in our lovers, having Sebastian top and Brad bottom. And I will say the steamy sections were definitely hot! But there was definitely more story, and more romance than I had remembered.
All in all, a solid M/M. Maybe a 3.5 star instead of full 4, but I enjoyed myself, so I’ll go all in, what the heck, why not…