Hole Hearted by Melissa Pearl

32798890Cassie Grayson doesn’t know how to be a mom. She’s twenty-two and hardly in a position to care for a kid. But when her twelve-year-old nephew is dumped in her lap, she does the only thing she can: she takes him in.

Neither of them have it easy as they try to navigate this unknown path. Cassie must deal with her feelings toward her estranged sister and her own rocky childhood growing up in the foster care system. Felix is still reeling from being uprooted from the only life he’s ever known, and he doesn’t connect with his weird, emotionless aunt. The only person who seems to breach the gap between them is Troy Baker, the counselor assigned to Felix.

To Troy, Felix and Cassie should be just another case, but they’re not. Something about the hopeless duo captures his heart, and in spite of his hesitation he finds himself falling for both of them. Felix’s quiet strength is endearing, but it’s Cassie’s determination to not let her nephew down that chips away at his own walls, daring him to more than just help her…but maybe fall in love as well.

Can three strangers from completely different worlds create an unlikely family? Or are the hidden holes in their hearts too big to heal?

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My Review:
4.5 stars — I received a free copy from the author in exchange for an honest and unbiased review/opinion.

Note: I’m going to put a trigger warning for this book.  No deetz, but just know that there is difficult subject matter.

So I was actually supposed to be finishing a beta read, but I decided to sneak this book in on the side, and it turns out this book did not want to BE just a side read.  Oh no, it wanted to suck me in.  This book gives Geronimo a run for its money as my favourite of the latter Songbird novels.  It was such a difficult read at times, with so much heartbreak and our heroine struggling with the evils of her childhood.  But with all of that comes a lot of love and hope and inspiration.  Ms. Pearl balanced it really well for me.

I wasn’t sure how I would feel about having Felix’s POV in the story…not because he’s a 12 year old boy, but because so many times it feels like authors aren’t authentic and realistic with children, you know?  Like they don’t really feel their age.  But Felix was PERFECT.  His reactions and feelings, and how he coped at school, particularly at the new school with the new girls, really felt…well, authentic.  He made all the choices I expected him to make.  And quite frankly, for a girl that’s not really good with kids, he made me love him.  I felt all of his heartbreak, and uncertainty, and fear, and hope, and love!  I can honestly say that this book would not have been half as good without his POV added.  (and can I just say that I kind of hope that Felix and Summer get a bonus novella sometime in the future when we’re all missing the Songbird novels and we beg Ms. Pearl for just a little bit more?   I can dream.)

So that brings us back to our normal hero and heroine, Troy and Cassie.  I’ll talk about Cassie first, b/c I love book boys, and I want to save my book boy for the end.  Cassie broke my freaking heart.  I felt like she was portrayed in a very sensitive and realistic way (even though I don’t honestly know how anyone copes with abuse, and people cope in many different ways, but I really felt like Cassie’s way of coping was realistic).  It was so odd to want to be mad at her sister Crystal right along with Cassie, but to also understand how those events in the past played out the way they did.  They were both so young.

Cassie goes through a HUGE character growth throughout this story…and I thought the pace of her changes was realistic and believable.  Like she had put a big coating of steel over herself, but Felix and Troy were seeping in through the seams and bringing her back to life a little at a time.  There were some scenes that just made my soul soar even while it was breaking.  When they find Felix and she sings to him…  When she embraces music to try to make a connection with him.  It was so hard to watch them struggle to fit together, but then it made those wins all the more sweet.  And it was the same with her relationship with Troy.  I knew that one was going to be so much harder, but I felt like the story moved in a way it was supposed to, and that how it played out felt right for them.

Troy was amazeballs.  I just love me a sweet, caring, sensitive man.  And sexy to boot!!  Seeing him fall in love and desperately want to become part of this little family was both beautiful and heartbreaking.  He was just the perfect fit for Cassie, and I loved seeing him get his love story.  I realize I don’t know what to say about him, other than to say that he gives Harry (from Geronimo) a run for his money in the book boy department.  He definitely made me swoon on multiple occasions.

The music in this one was a mixed bag for me…I discovered that I’m not an 80’s hairband lover!  I tried listening to some of the songs and I was just like “Felix, Troy, no…”  I mean, don’t get me wrong, I love me some Bon Jovi.  But apparently that love does not translate to Europe’s Superstitious or Def Leppard’s Animal.  😛  But then I discovered that I actually knew the title song, Hole Hearted, and LOVE it, and had never known the name of the song or that that was what they were saying!!  Bwahahaha…  So anyways, while I didn’t always enjoy all the songs, I really did enjoy how the music played a part in this book as it has with every Songbird novel.

And bonus points for this book?  So many cameos!!  I knew we’d see Jimmy, Nessa and Chaos (and that was awesome), but I totally forgot that Cole and Troy were friends!!  I really need to go back and reread this series from the beginning and catch up on the books I missed…

So yeah, I’m totally babbling now, but just know I really loved this book and feel like it’s one of the stars in this series.


Steady Stroke by A.M. Arthur

30309403After a tragic accident, Lincoln West’s dreams of making it big as a guitarist fell apart. Unable to play music, he’s battling a hopeless downward spiral, and takes his friend’s offer to stay at their beach house for the summer. While at an open mike night at local bar Off Beat, he locks eyes with a busboy who doesn’t make Linc feel so broken anymore.

Emmett Westmore lives for the anonymity of busing tables in his aunt’s quirky bar where no one pities him for the fire that killed everyone he loved. He blames himself for the fire, and he doesn’t want anyone to see him—except for Linc. Emmett’s walls drop when he’s around the gorgeous blue-eyed guitarist, but he has a secret that could destroy his budding relationship with Linc.

Both Linc and Emmett are looking for a way to live again…will they let their fears control them or take a chance on something real?

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My Review:
3.5 stars — I received a free copy through NetGalley in exchange for an honest and unbiased review/opinion.

So I finished this book with a fairly solid 4 star feeling…but the problem is that there were a few things that bothered me, and I made the mistake of going to read other reviews to see if other people were equally bothered, and suddenly I was more bothered.  GAH!  I have to stop doing that!  So now we’re at a 3.5 stars and I don’t know whether to round up or down.  I think I’ll still round up since that was my gut feeling upon finishing the book, and I shouldn’t be so easily swayed.

So the good: I really enjoyed both characters.  I felt like they each had quite a bit of depth, and their own interesting story to tell about coming to terms with being gay and all that good stuff.  I also really enjoyed the romance in this one, I could really feel the chemistry between the characters.  They were playful at times, and seemed to bring out good things in each other, encouraging each to be themselves and reach for goals.  I loved how sweet they could be to each other (Emmett taking care of Linc with the migraines and his more recent trauma, and Linc being there for Em with his past struggles, and his current struggles accepting his homosexuality and exploring it).  I really enjoyed the addition of so many intriguing secondary characters…they felt real, had depth, and added to the story, added to our view of the characters in general (though I do have a counterpoint later).  Also, I will note that I didn’t read the first book in this series, and though some of the plot was given away, it did make me intrigued about picking up Dom and Trey’s story and reading it.

And then there’s the things that bothered me: first, and FOREMOST, the secret.  OK, so this is the first A.M. Arthur book I’ve read, and from some of the reviews I’ve seen, it seems the author is a fan of angst.  I’m only a medium fan of angst, so maybe it was a bit of a mismatch for me.  The problem for me is that there was SO MUCH of it.  I mean, each character individually had enough personal strife to satisfy any craving for angst.  And quite honestly, if that was all we had to deal with, I would have enjoyed this book so much more.  The problems they were dealing with were intriguing, and heartbreaking, and more than enough to make a great plot and provide conflict and resolution.  But the author had to one-up it or something.  And so came Emmett’s secret.  I was not a fan.  I think I might have blinked in disbelief.  It’s not that I haven’t read books with this twist in it, but they usually aren’t accompanied by a bevy of problems that precede it.  The problem lies in that with so many issues being addressed, none of them really got the love and attention and respect that they deserved.  I became desensitized, and I didn’t truly believe in the resolutions then.

(This might get a little plot spoilery in this paragraph, be warned) And it wasn’t just that this additional secret existed, it was that it was introduced to Emmett early on in the book, and then he kept it a secret from Linc until towards the end.  And I’m not entirely sure I believed in the purpose for him keeping it a secret, and so I felt myself disliking Emmett for making that choice.  And then it was just there, causing him guilt, and making me want to know how Lincoln would react.  And then when that finally came to a head, it was so close to the end, I didn’t really get the believable resolution I wanted.  I know…I’m being vague.  But I really have to be in this case.

So back to the other issues.  Wasn’t really impressed with the resolution to the issue Linc deals with wrt Tom.  Too serious of an issue to be handled so flippantly in some ways.  I try to tell myself that everyone deals with things differently, and this very well might be how someone would deal with it, but it became a tiny subplot compared to everything else going on, and so it really didn’t need to be there if it wasn’t going to be treated with respect and sensitivity.

Wasn’t really impressed with the additional diversity added for Emmett/Emilio.  Could have been so good, and I LOVE diverse books, but making him Muslim felt like a plot device to address the fear, but we got nothing from his religion (and having grown up so devoutly, I would expect to learn more about it regardless of how he feels now).  It was a topic that was added, but not given enough time or, again, respect.

I’m hoping that Van and Melody get their own book, and that the author actually deals with their sexual challenges with more insight and respect.  They were an intriguing addition, but again not really given time or weight (but at least in this aspect I’m assuming it’s because they will be getting their own book, otherwise I don’t see the point in adding yet another topic to this overloaded story).

And that’s the basic jist of it for me.  The story was overloaded.  I feel like the author could have done a much better job if she’d pared down the trauma each character (and the secondary characters) experienced and given more weight and thoughtfulness to any of the gagillion topics she chose to address.  By adding so many, she kind of watered it down and missed some great opportunities.

So how the hell can I justify a round up to 4 stars now?  Hmmm…good question.  See?  That’s the thing.  These things that bothered me really did bother me.  But the good stuff of the romance and the character interactions cannot be undervalued.  They made for a very enjoyable read for me.  So I guess the written part of my review is where I rant about those bad things, but the star part of my review is where I convey how much the good parts weighed in the grand scheme of things for me.  Well, if nothing else, this book made me think a lot about what I like and all that…  (And I thought my last review was long…*rolls eyes*)